Monday, was another rough day at work. I wanted over before I even got there.
Tuesday I decided to make it a good day. My boss actually joked with me again! He seemed to get the hint that I will not talk to him if he's in a bad mood.
I stayed late to finish some work.
I had today off. I drove out to see my dude #2 at his town... OK dilemma time.
I like his personality, I love the attention & compliments I am getting... but I am not physically attracted to him...so today when he kissed me goodbye I was expecting sparks... did not happen.
I kept thinking of my old life with my ex. I got really upset and had to stop him. I went home crying and mad at myself that I cannot let go.
I did talk to him afterwards on the phone and I explained to him how I felt. He said he would wait if I wanted to continue getting to know each other as friends. I see nothing wrong with that so I think I will keep that option for now.
I went to work after to get my minds cleared out... I came to realize my work replaces me stuffing my face.
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We are living the same life. I have two guys that like me, I communicate with them very well, I wish I was attracted to them. Why is that? You watch Julie, I will find one I like and they wont like me ! Martine
Ps: Good luck - have two dates one tonight and one tomorrow night. Fingers crossed.
Sorry Julie, that sounds rough. Don't force yourself into it with that guy if you're not feeling attracted to him, it's not your fault.
Sounds like you have unresolved stuff with the ex maybe? (Just call me Dr. Phil!) Would a phone call help?
Hang in there (and glad your boss is being nicer!)
Glad that you have discovered an alternative to eating! I feel for you with the guy. For me, if there is no spark with a kiss I move on. Best of luck figuring it out.
I'm sorry about the issue with the guy. Maybe things will get better but if you're just not attracted to him, that's just the way it is. Getting to know him better could change that though! I think you're making a good decision.
I wasn't physically attracted to FH the first time I met him...it actually took a few dates before I was really sure. It was worth the wait to see.
If after a few dates you still aren't feeling it, move along and try again. This is only guy #2 after all. :)
The stuff about your ex is rearing it's head because this is your first foray (sp?) into dating. It's not unusual..and probably a few good cries and a couple of awkward moments will help get rid of those feelings.
Good luck and keep going!!
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