Weekend Recap

Sorry I have not posted in four days.

On Thursday and Friday I felt like this...

It reads: Fuck it I am going home. It really does sum up how I felt by Friday afternoon.

The boss was in a bad mood, I was too.... not a good combination. I ended up getting upset, crying and being hard headed. Learn from me, that will not get you on his good side.

I felt totally drained on Friday. My 2 bestest co-workers, a friend, and I went out for supper, drinks and listening to music at a pub. It took mind off the problems I had at work and some random dude bought us shots... That's always a good thing! LOL!!

Saturday, I went on a very small road trip. The town in which my "dude #2" lives. No I did not go see him I knew he was working. That town has a clothing store that we don't. A co-worker who loves to shop had asked me if I wanted to go. I said yes of course. Got some really nice summer clothes. Spent way too much money.

Came home to piss pouring rain. Took a nap, I woke up and it was nice out.

Went out to a friend's house for more drinks and a bonfire. I laugh so much with that gang. Nothing makes me feel better then Mr.Smirnoff Vodka, bonfires, dancing and good laughs.

Here is me showing my new boobs. I got fitted correctly for a new bra and I am all impressed that my boobs lift and separate now. I was asked all night to show how it works. Hard to tell because I have a hoodie on but it really does help make me look skinnier.

Date and WI results

First thing is first... I lost 0.6 lbs this week. Better then gaining I always say!
It gives me a total of 122.4 lbs gone. YAY!

I did make it to the gym yesterday. Double YAY!!!! I did 45 mins on dreadmill. I had a good time.

OK Date with dude #2.

It went well. Better then expected. It's like I have known him for years and can say anything... Great feeling. Not physically attracted right off the bat. Great conversation, funny, non judgmental, a real thinker. I just really loved his company. He asked if he could see me again I said yes... He lives about 1 1/2hour away, so this is great for me right now.
I get to keep my independence and still go out dating... Which is all I want now.

My best friend gave me the best advice tonight... Don't nitpick... I tend to do that often.... I will find that the belt did not match the shoes and it will bug the shit right out of me then I will push him away. I promised her I would not do it this time.

Merci!

I cannot thank you enough. All of your kind words have really meant something to me.
I am going on a date tomorrow. He's not physically my type but seems to be a real gentleman and well at this point in my life... I need a good man. So we will see I will fill you in tomorrow evening. I know it' s a weight loss blog but this has to do with my journey to being happy.

The scale is showing down even though TOM is around. I hope it stays like that for tomorrow WI.

I have not exercised this week at all. I might try to hit the gym tonight.

Thanks again for everything!!

Number one down

I've been hurt. I met the guy once I thought there was something there since he asked for a second date. I held my breath that it would work... Then I get the email.

The I saw my ex today and think I am not over her yet. I don't want to waste your time please know it's not what I intended to happen. I hope you can understand.... shitty.

I don't believe him. It's the easy way out. Maybe I would believe him had I not seen on the dating site that he logged in today.... Obviously still looking...

I am going to set up a date with the dude#2. Sure he said something that pissed me off but he has yet to run away after everything I have told him. I have told him alot more then I ever wanted to already.

I really don't think I made to be happy. I know for certain I am not made to casually date, I am sitting here crying over a dude who I spent two hours with... hello crazy!

Weekend recap

Friday: Had a long day at work. Busy,crazy and something went to hell right before closing time so I had to stay longer. I did get a thank you card and gift card to Starbucks from a patient who I helped in the past weeks with her 3 year old daughter. I was so touched.
Got home and I crashed on the couch. I was so tired. I was drained.

Saturday: I got up early and went yardsaling(it's a word!) with a friend. Then we went for her appointment to the psychic. I went out and bought a cute little cover up sundress for when I want to wear a bathing suit but don't want everybody to see it. It cute! I also bought bras because they were on sale and I needed one that fit right. Retail therapy is always good.

Sunday: I was cursed with TOM this morning. I have huge cramps. Still not heard any news on whether or not I have a date.... So frustrating.
Now I don't want to waste my day waiting but at the same time don't want to miss the opportunity. I am not cut out for this stuff...

It's Friday!!

WOOHOO I now have 40 followers,thanks!

It was super hot out yesterday like 30Celsius. I did not get to enjoy any of it. I worked late, ran errands, by the time I got to a friend's house to sit on her deck it was 8pm and well the heat was almost gone the sun going down. My allergies started flaring up I had such a sinus headache when I got home. Her yard is full of beautiful blooming trees and lots of flowers. I did not think I had allergies but as I get older I think I do.

Got home at 10 realised I had not eating supper. I had eaten an apple and fibre one granola bar right after work. I have been doing that lately. I had to eat something before going to bed. I had a light supper, relaxed a bit and crashed into sleep.

Tonight I cancelled my plans(date with dude #2) long story, might try some other time.
I just want to come home, cook a good meal and go for long walk.

Dude from date #1 wants to meet again Sunday. YAY!

I told both potential boys that I had lost weight. I was not going to but the conversation was perfect and I opened that door right away to get rid of it.
Do you think I did the right thing??

Freaky psychic and date review

I won't leave you hanging.

Yesterday right after work I went right for my "reading". It was OK, she is very spiritual and can describe you like nobody's business... Freaky a little. She said stuff about me that only if you know the real me you would get.
Now I went to see her 3 yrs ago and she said almost all the same stuff to me. So for me it was like... You just repeat everything to people ... how dumb.
Now the girl who I was going for to show support. She's only going this weekend. If she tells her she has a thing for shoes....we are going to know she literally just repeats. Because one thing my friend is not and I am is a shoe girl.

Then the friend I brought along to take notes and I went to eat a healthy supper. We went to a place called Mega Wraps. Exactly what it sounds like a wrap sandwich place.
I had chicken on WW pita with lots of veggies. SO GOOD!!
We talked for while. I went to her house to change into jeans and make sure my date was still on.

We met for a drink, it went well. He's extremely shy. We had a good conversation, he paid for my drink and I asked how much I owed him for it. He said you owe me nothing. It's my way of seeing you again because next time you can buy me a beer. Cute right??!
So off to our cars we went and that was it.... Now I live a little out of town so by the time I got home, I was already doubting he was into me.
I got in and my MSN starting pinging... he was writing me how much he had a great time and could not wait to see me again. Told me all what a girl wants to hear. I was attractive, funny, lovely smile, and hot eyes.( I get the eyes thing alot) In that one moment I felt good about myself.

We talk until almost 1am and I felt really good about the outcome. I don't know when I will see him again but I look forward to it.

Now the problem is another guy asked me out for this weekend....I feel so slutty. LOL

WI result

You read that right... I lost 3.4 lbs this week. WOW I feel great!! I did really good added in exercise. Just the walking helped. I knew this would happen once the nice weather came around.

I always said I would take out the front page of the newspaper when I finally got a date. ;)

Wish me luck if he backs out I will so come home and cry like a school girl.

random stuff

1. Guess how I woke up this morning?? If you guessed birdbrain you are correct!!

2. My toe is still throbbing.It's much better then it was yesterday. I kinda hope I make it to the gym soon.

3. I have trouble sleeping lately.

4. I go see a psychic tomorrow. Just for entertainment. My friend was too scared to go by herself so I am going first so she can see what it's like.

5. Right after that I go on my first date.. I wonder if she'll predict that. LOL

6. The scale is showing down this morning. I hope it sticks around until tomorrow.

7. It's hard to go back into work after a long weekend. The good news I am done at 5 today instead of 8pm.YAY for that... I can figure out what to wear tomorrow.Oh god I am going to have a panic attack.

Long weekend

Ok so I binged on Saturday. No reason just because.

Sunday I did better I went to get groceries bought lots of fruit and veggies. I am ready to tackle this week.

Sunday night I decided that since Mr. Right's GPS is broken and he can't find me I am going to go looking for someone. I joined a internet dating site(2 to be exact) and I have talk to a couple of great guys.
Get this I was even asked to go out on a date!!! I have not been asked that since I was 17 yrs old.
Last time I was asked I stayed with the guy for 9 yrs. I don't think that will happen again but I do look forward to meeting new people and seeing what comes out of it.
This is actually helping stay focused on my eating. I want to loose more weight.

I stayed up until 3:30 chatting with a wonderful guy, I am still school girl giddy this morning. This is just what I need to get over my shyness. It helps the self esteem.
I will update the dating situation when I get more into it.

Yesterday, my big toe got caught in something and I actually heard crunch... HOLY CRAP it hurts!!!!
I stayed off it yesterday.
This morning I can hardly stand to walk on it, really swollen. No gym for me tonight.

Today is a holiday. I am off from work. Looking at cleaning, cooking and maybe icing my big toe into the frozen veggies I have in the freezer.

Sunny Saturday

Alright so I am downloading some pics on my pc. I love when other bloggers share pics, no matter what they are. I am going to share some with you...probably not interesting to anyone but hey

too bad. ;)

Buddy and I Wednesday evening during our walk.

I have a pic of all three of us together... trust me I won't be putting it in a frame anytime soon. The dogs look good I look like a wild animal...So I am not sharing that one.

Since Sadie is not 100% I decided to sit a little longer then I wanted to on a very windy evening, to give her some recovery time.

I had my mother with me on this walk she was able to take pics of us.

What bad hair.. Can you tell which way the wind was blowing?! LOL

This sign always makes me feel safe....No men with guns are allowed on the trail.

This is me this morning on my walk. I had a good walk it was so sunny and warm!

Now I am going to sit in the sun, read, but first I need a nutritious lunch.

Have a good Saturday!!

WI result

I went walking last night. I was going to go to the gym but it was so nice out I decided the pups deserve their first long walk on the trail this season.
It was super windy but overall it was a nice walk.
Walking always gears me into more exercise it's like an appetizer before a big meal.

This morning I got up on my own.
Note: Freddy the pheasant decided not to come by. YAY!! He must have read my blog.

I got on the scale expecting to gain or stay the same, I was a little happy when I saw I had lost 1 whole pound.
Tonight after work, I have an appointment with the bank, have supper and then head home to watch the Grey's finale. Trying not to munch on everything.

This weekend is a long one, it's really the kick off to summer in my eyes.

Big bird

All of you must know by now I am not a morning person .
Even worse is when I get rudely awoken by either a phone or a pheasant....That's right a freaking pheasant.



I think he sees himself in my bedroom window as a reflection but is too stupid to realize it's him not another male bird...So he does this <
Not just this morning for the past three mornings... Hey shithead I wake up around 7-7:30 not 6! I think he should reset his Timex...

So this morning I heard him I jumped out of bed called the dogs over to the window pulled the blinds open... They freaked and he ran like his tail was on fire... TOO FUNNY! That will show him to wake me up.


Would you run if you saw this at 6 in the morning? Althought Buddy is big he would never hurt the bird but I guarantee he would give it a good chase.


I felt bad Sadie had her spotlight yesterday so I had to show some love to my fatso Buddy!! LoL

I know I need a date bad, but I don't need a male stalking bird looking in my bedroom window... lol

I will WI tomorrow so please send me some skinny vibes because as of this morning I was up 1 lb.

Fruit fix

I was packing my lunch for today and love that I got summer fruits in there for my snack.
I love blueberries, watermelon and strawberries. I can't wait to have them locally in the next months. YUM!!!

I had bought this little strawberry shaped strainer to wash my fruits. It's cute, right?!

I am doing good food wise, not excellent just average. I am happy with that because the past few months I have been off the wagon big time at least now I am in the back seat. Maybe next week I will ride shotgun. lol

Here is a shot of one of my dogs(Sadie). Her fav toy since she has been 6 weeks old is a plastic burger(which resembles a big mac!) She has to have it always with her, never goes to bed without it and if it goes missing will search for it by taking out every toy in her large basket out until I bend over and look under couches and beds for it.

I think it's hilarious how she can fit the whole thing in her mouth...

No title

I hate Mondays.

I did really good all weekend. Still need to try to exercise, I am lacking in that department.

The scale showed up this morning.... It better smarten up and go down in a couple of days.

I got woken up by the phone this morning(4am), I hate being awaken by a phone, I could not get back to sleep. I did manage to flip flop in my bed for about an hour.
Now I am grumpy gusset this morning.

I hope everyone had a nice Mother's day, and great weekend.

I would like to thank....

My first ever award!!




I got this from a fantastic blogger, blendergrl. She is great, I am telling you she could be on the food network. She makes her pasta from scratch, does great recipes, she's just wonderful.


Now it is my turn to send this off to five others.
Here are the rules for those who are tagged:

Pass it along to 5 fellow super bloggers, and comment on their blog to let them know how lucky they are today!When you present your Super Blogger awards, link back to the super blogger who gave it to you.


Now I don't want to play favs and some of the people I would have gave it to already got it.

I decided I was just going to name 5 bloggers that I like but not more then others ;-)



1. Natasha- I find her to be genuine! I love that she seems so down to earth and is a great supporter.



2. Juice- I find we are alot alike, except she is so positive. I am quite the opposite but love to read her upbeat posts.



3. Seashore- She's doing so good! Her progress pics are just great!!



4. Krista- Stay away for a little bit because my girly girl got shingles.... OUCH! lol She has offered me so much support, when I was going thru a hard time she emailed me to keep me accountable. I will always be grateful to her. Her weight loss is inspirational!



5. Dina- I love this girl, she makes me laugh out loud. She talks about her weight loss but most of the time anything that happens in her life she gives you the funniest report of it. I know she must hate these stupid little things but I just could not miss out to show her some love, because she is always giving me some good comments!

Free Lemonade!

Alright well it's a virtual free lemonade but hey it's to show my appreciation to all my blog friends.

So life has handed me a massive truckload of lemons, as the saying goes make lemonade.

With all my battles lately I feel overwhelmed, I am so negative about it all.

That's about to change...

I am offering all of you a glass of lemonade ( you may add alcohol!!) to celebrate I am back!!

Yeah lemons might hit me on the head sometimes but I can't let it get to me. I need to step up and make my way in life without regrets.

I stepped on the scale I hate to admit it but it has a shown a very scary number...246.8 lbs.

I am actually tearing up here, I have never revealed my weight to nobody.

So I need to loose big time and I am going to start now!

Thank you all for sticking with me and hope you will be around for a celebration of massive proportions when I finally loose all my weight.

Letting it all out

Watching American Idol trying not to eat the whole fridge... I am so hungry.

My day was screwed up I woke up late, I forgot I had to bring doggy to the vet this morning. I am used to working at noon on Tuesdays. I got off running and by the time I got home I had just enough time for a small bite.

For supper I had a huge salad, but there was leftover birthday cake starring at me at the office. I resisted!!

I am going to implement the birthday person should bring the rest of the cake home so I don't need to look at it for 2 days.

But do you ever feel like you should have just gave in??

Tonight I got home and ate chips, Peanut butter and don't ask but some crab meat... WEIRD. No I did not put those all together it was three different trips.

I am now bitting my nails off because I just want to keep eating. WHY????

Tonight we had a deep conversation about dating. As you may know I have not dated in almost 3 years. After my 9 yr relationship ended I was sure I would be alone for the rest of my life.

Tonight after talking to friends at work, I came to realize I want to get my feet wet. At my age is the only option Internet dating??? I really don't want to go there. Deep thinking is going on.

Anyways it got me thinking... maybe that's why I am suppressing my feelings by eating.

Now that felt better letting all that crap out!!

Weekend report

Not much to report, I am doing OK food wise. Yesterday I got up and ran out the door to do some shopping. I forgot to eat breakfast and I ended up skipping lunch for no reason other then I honestly forgot...Never happened before.


I got home it was close to 4 so I got to work on supper. I had a great chicken sandwich and fries. I should have taking a pic...


One of my friends called up they were getting together, drinking, chatting.
As a single girl I am not always comfortable in a "couple environment" but with these guys it's so much fun it does not matter.
I had a couple of drinks, munched on veggies. I was doing pretty good. Danced in the living room which is our favorite thing to do late at night to burn some calories.

Here I am singing into my drink...

Then I came home looking for something to eat. I reached for the can of Pringles, I wish I could tell you I put it back, but I opened it up and enjoyed a handful. At least they were the light Pringles.





Today I have committed to either going for a extra long walk or heading into the gym.
I need to get back into it.