Short and Gross

I got 50 followers. YAY!!!! Thanks guys!

I will do a video post I promise... sometime this week.

I hate mornings but I hate them even more when they involve dog puke. My girl Sadie is not doing well again, she seems to have gone downhill like she did a couple of months ago.
I have cleaned up vomit every morning for the past 3 days.

I am running super late for work but I promise to update you on the concert and my video post somewhere in the week.

It's super humid here and I feel all gross and icky... I need to jump in the shower.

Have a good Monday... I hate them in general.

Saturday

The weekend is finally here!!

I just noticed that I have 49 followers...Exciting! I was thinking of doing a video blog soon I might do it if I hit the 50 followers!

Today I am heading out to see the Bon Jovi concert.
It's says no camera on the ticket... I need to find a way to sneak one in.
We are all meeting up at a friend's house having drinks and a good supper before heading out to the outdoor concert. I disgust crowds of drunken concert goers but I think I might join them this year. lol!

I have been having dating issues with dude #2... I am very confused and it's complicated but I think I want to move forward with him, but then dude #3 seems like a great potential man.
Dating is not for the weak hearted. That's just what I am.
I need real dating advice... who can I call?? Is there like a dating guru out there??

I did not sleep well last night...So I better go relax I have a huge day ahead of me.

Friday Cops edition

It's been hot and humid here for the past couple of days. Yuck. I hate humidity.

I went out for supper last night with a friend who I had no seen in years. Great conversation bad food choices. Why can't I ever stay away from the fries?? I love them more then life itself. *sigh*

Two nights ago I get a phone call from a new dude which I met online we shall call him dude #3. He was really nice.

In the middle of the conversation, my dogs start to bark there is someone at my door.

What a first impression... " I have to let you go there is a police officer here for me".

I could not make this stuff up if I tried people....

I had changed into my stay at home super fugly clothes.

Exhibit A:

They are my old 5X size... and almost see through because they are so old.

I was being subpoenaed for something that happened at work. I am so upset don't want to discuss it more then I have to. It's a week from today. Showing up a court is not on my to do list of things to do before dying.

The police officer was hot and I was not wearing the nicest clothes oh and well I forgot, I was not wearing a bra.Frustrating...

Then I had to call dude#3 back and explain. He was sooo funny about it. He asked me if I needed bail money?!

We talked for over and hour.

He emailed me last night and I called him a little after that..

He seems really genuine and nice. I think we might try to meet next weekend.

I bought new shoes because that always makes me feel better!

WI

Alright so the bad news was I had gained close to 13 lbs in 3 weeks. Not my proudest moment but it happened and I got over it.

This week I watched what I put in my mouth, did not exercise formally but did dance around my living room(which I love doing).
I stepped on the scale today to show a 3.6 loss. So good news is I am going in the right direction!

TOM is here... I hate it!

I just joined the lovely Amy's 15 week challenge. I needed this so bad!! It will help me get going in the right direction again.

Tagged!!

I was tagged by the great Dina, I love getting tagged for these type of things, :)


Here are the rules:

1. Respond and rework; answer the questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your invention & add one more question of your own.

2. Tag eight other people

-What is your current obsession? Shoes- always been always will be

-What are you wearing today?Ok well right now just a shirt and panties... but I will get dressed before heading to the office.

-What’s for dinner?I have not even decided what's for breakfast yet.

-What’s the last thing you bought? My friend son's b-day present...Cars race track.

-What are you listening to right now? My dog scratching herself.(she has allergies)

-If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? Australia

Which language do you want to learn? Italian or Spanish

-What do you love most about where you currently live? It's very peaceful

-What is your favorite colour? Blue

-What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own wardrobe? I have a old pair of super worn out jeans but I love them so they are super comfy. I also love my sweaters...

-Describe your personal style? Mostly jeans and t-shirt, my work clothes tends to be sweaters and dress pants, and then switch to summer. Tank tops and capris. I own alot of black... I hear it's slimming ;)

-If you had $300 now, what would you spend it on? A man escort... HAHAHA!!!

-What are you going to do after this? Shower

-Your favorite smell? Watermelon

-Do you collect anything? nope, I used to collect cows when I was younger.

-If you can have any super powers what would it be? Read people's mind.

-Do you like to comment on blogs or just lurk? I do lurk most of the time, but I have my blogs were I must leave my opinion.

-What’s one thing you dream of doing? Travel more

-What is your biggest regret? Dumping all my friends when I met a man.

-What is your favorite thing to do on a rainy day? Lay in bed with a good book and the dogs

-Do you have a tattoo? It's my gift when I loose all my weight. I already know where I want but need to figure out what I want.

-What are your favorite books? I love anything except romance novels.

-Are you left handed, right handed, ambidextrous, or a little of both? Right handed.

There you have it...
I do love these things but I don't have time to tag people right now... I might come back to edit or please take it upon yourself to answer.

Monday boring edition

I don't have much to say again...

I had gained about 13 lbs in the last three weeks of binging. I can now say the scale is finally going down because I have been watching very carefully what I put in my mouth.

TOM is around the corner...YUCK!

Father's day was not that bad. My dad and I don't have a super relationship.

Next weekend is a Bon Jovi concert here in town, I love music, love concerts even more.
I always try to do at least one big one every year.
There is two major ones this summer, Bon Jovi and ACDC. Well not my top performers but I think I would like to have the experience of seeing both.
We will see. FYI I love all sort of music so don't judge me by my concert selection. HAHA!!

I need to try to work out this week. It rained all weekend, I did nothing and pouted the whole two days.
Get up off your butt and move. (That was a note to myself!!)

The winners are....

That's right I decided on winners and not a winner.
I had two coupons to give and I decided to have two great people get in on a free bottle of juice.

As chosen by random.org...

1. Jaime (Embracing Balance) said...
I want a free something!! I look at the fancy juices every time I shop but never buy them cuz they're never on sale. Pick me!

2. SV said...
Yup, I'd love a free bottle. Bring it!

Congrats!!
email me to give me your info.
julieleb2006@hotmail.com

I love this giveaway stuff... mind you I have never won anything in my life. I love giving stuff away... stay tuned I may do it again soon!

Running late

I am running super late so I will post a winner later today.

If someone could tell me the easiest way to pick a winner. Is there a more fair way then taking all the names and putting them in a hat?? LOL!

I really have to go but I will update you guys tonight.

Free bottle of juice

I was contacted by the nice POM wonderful people to give me free pomegranate juice. YAY!!!

I love free anything...

Because I live in Canada they could not send me bottles just coupons. I asked her to send me a extra coupon to give to a lucky blogger friend.

Here's the deal on the world's crappiest giveaway. (it's my first one maybe they will get better with time.lol)

1. YOU MUST BE CANADIAN... I am not being all country proud, but the coupon is only good for Canada, eh!

2. You must leave me a comment saying you want to try the super expensive juice but you are too cheap to pay 4-6$, you would rather a free bottle. :)

3.I will annouce the winner on Friday...

4. Could at least one person enter... I would cry if no one wanted a free something.

Tuesday

Still can't stop eating to suppress my shitty emotions.

I am out of control.

I jumped on the scale, called it a bitch, almost started crying, then went to grab a snack...at 10 pm.

My leg is sore again, I think after a week I am pretty sure I did not just cramp up I must have pulled something.
I can walk short distances, that's what I have been doing.
I think it would help if I could go to the gym, but it seriously hurts too much.

I have noticed if I workout hard I tend to eat better because I don't want to loose all my work.
I need to get there asap.

Sorry I don't have any interesting things to say...

Wet, new snack and dating

Yesterday was a Relay for life fundraiser walk for cancer. My mother's boyfriend is a cancer survivor along with two of his siblings. The survivors do the first lap and everyone watches them walk and applauds. Let me tell you it's the most touching thing I have ever saw. This year it was raining so hard... I mean all day like 40mm was falling from the sky.

They walked anyways... true survivors!

I went to support them and literally got so soaked. I had a hard time peeling off my jeans when I got home.

I looked like this before leaving (well not exactly like this because this was taking a few days ago)

Notice the hair all straight... that takes time people!

Got in the car after being drenched...I look like a wet cat! Hair all curled up takes about 2 mins in the water... Frig!

I love these new things I found at the grocery last week.

They are really good with some peanut butter spread on them.

The nutritional info is good..

For 6 slices ( I can't imagine eating 6) Cals 120 Fat 1 fibre 3 that's pretty excellent!

I hope this post does not make me loose followers but I need to vent it out.

I am having a hard time dealing with self issues. This dating thing has opened up a jar of emotions I had sealed up a long time ago.

I have insecurities, I have poor self confidence and I suffer from low self esteem... I wonder if there is a pill to cure these things??

I have a hard time imagining being intimate with someone...

Hello you can't loose 120 lbs and not look like crap after you remove the clothes.

I have loose skin on my arms and of course my belly.

My boobs now look like two tennis balls in tube socks. When I lay down on my back one goes east and the other goes west.

How can I enjoy myself while worrying about all this??

Then I realize I am a very jealous person I tend to think I won't measure up to anyone these men have ever been with.

I hate how dating into your adult life comes with issues that at 17 yrs old I did not have.

I keep analysing all the men's past.

Someone told me to get over it everyone has a past I should be happy most of them don't have baggage.

So my dude #2 we have seen each other three times... will probably see him again this week.

I like hanging out with him, I enjoy his company. I recently started to feel butterflies when I talk to him... but yet something is keeping my away.

I am still chatting with others to see if there is a potential other dates. I believe that if I went on another date it would help me determine if I like the attention of any man or if I really like the attention of a certain man.

Everyone keeps telling me to just go with the flow and have fun with this. I can't! That's why I needed to talk to the blog land someone out there must know how I am feeling.

Sorry for not posting in a while... nothing worth talking about.

I am at work right now bored out of my mind. If the boss knew I was blogging he would have my head... oh well he's not here!

I have been out of control as far as eating. It's horrible!
I am obviously trying to compress some emotion that has been happening.
I will try to update my blog tonight.

Later!

Tuesay

I hope everyone had a good weekend.

It was so nice out for once here that I took advantage of it Saturday. I got up fairly early and went for a quick walk with the pooches. Came home cleaned the whole place, sat out in the sun with my ipod blaring... total bliss!

Then my dude #2 called, he was in town and wanted to know if I wanted to crap a bite to eat later on for supper. I got ready and we went to a Quizno's ... not romantic but good. He had his motorbike so he felt like he looked too shitty to go to a restaurant.

I was on my way home when a friend called up they were having another bonfire and wanted me to go over. I gladly turned around headed to get a couple of drinks and had a nice evening.

Sunday, grocery day. I am trying to stick to a budget with my grocery bill, it's going better. It's hard to eat well and save money.
I cleaned out my closet of stuff that is too big. YAY! Now there is room for more new stuff!
Then I decided to go out for a intense walk... I only made it 5 mins then I needed to hop back to my car to come home. I thought it was just a muscle cramp... but it's still hurting 2 days later, mind you not as much.
I think I pulled something. Let this be a lesson... Stretch before you start. I have never and don't really see the point. I have a feeling I will be a little more careful.

I am off the wagon, food wise. It's ok it's just a blib on the radar. It will get better.
I have the day off tomorrow so I am going to try to make some yummy stuff to freeze in case of emergency cravings.

YAY it's Friday!

Yesterday after work, a co-worker and I went out for drinks and supper. Actually went to my fav restaurant in town here. It's a chicken place and they just moved into a really nice new building. So I felt all sex and the city with my fancy schmancy drink. A spin on the cosmopolitan.I wish I had a pic..

I got this on their website.

I ate a chicken wrap with fries... Not healthy but honestly the best supper I have had in a long time.

This reminds me I really need to get a new cell phone with a camera... I would love to take more pics when I am out and about. Might go looking for one this weekend.

This has made an appearance in the last couple of days. I am hoping he sticks around for the week-end.

Mid week report

Monday, was another rough day at work. I wanted over before I even got there.
Tuesday I decided to make it a good day. My boss actually joked with me again! He seemed to get the hint that I will not talk to him if he's in a bad mood.
I stayed late to finish some work.
I had today off. I drove out to see my dude #2 at his town... OK dilemma time.
I like his personality, I love the attention & compliments I am getting... but I am not physically attracted to him...so today when he kissed me goodbye I was expecting sparks... did not happen.
I kept thinking of my old life with my ex. I got really upset and had to stop him. I went home crying and mad at myself that I cannot let go.

I did talk to him afterwards on the phone and I explained to him how I felt. He said he would wait if I wanted to continue getting to know each other as friends. I see nothing wrong with that so I think I will keep that option for now.
I went to work after to get my minds cleared out... I came to realize my work replaces me stuffing my face.