Still here

I am still here.
I took a extra week off from work to get stuff rolling for my father's estate.
So off for two weeks and I have no desire to go back to work.

I have not watched anything going in my mouth.
I have not done anything active in two weeks.
Quite disappointing actually

I am taking this harder then I thought...
I feel the need to talk to someone but yet I don't, and when people reach out I tend to shut down.
It's complicated when you have family members who don't get what you are feeling.
My father and I relationship was not a easy one in the past, so I guess I could use someone who is not involved with us.... maybe it's time to turn to a professional :(

That's all I got for now. I expect to be back into a routine soon. then I can concentrate on me again

Needed break

Unfortunately I need a small break.

My father passed away this morning.

He had been sick for the past 10 yrs or so.
He was diabetic and never watched himself, he suffered from kidney failure(dyalisis), fingers and both legs amputated, eye problems,living in a nursing home at the aged of 52,heart problems, poor circulation...and so much more.
The man had a great life, he lasted with all the above problems for years and still held on.
Unfortunately his heart failed on him.

So let this be a lesson to not take our health for granted. Make changes before its too late.

I am ok! It went fast so I am at peace with it all.
I'm just taking a much needed break.

WI

I WI at the exact same as last week...I worked hard but not hard enough obviously.

I weight myself every day and had seen the scale climb up 3 lbs.... so I guess when you take that into consideration I did pretty good to get back to where I was.

***WARNING TOO MUCH INFO BELOW***

My period has been here for 2 weeks straight, and I am frustrated as heck. Right now it looks like someone got murdered down there.
Which of course as you ladies know(if there are man reading... sorry!), comes with much more then just that. Lots of crappy symptoms.
I am drained.

so no fitness this week, I am committed next week for that part. Now that I got my eating under control it's time to get the big ball moving.

Happy Friday everyone!

Is this week over yet?

Yesterday was a just a disaster.

It was crazy nuts at work...so that makes patients that come in crazy too.

I intended on going to Zumba last night but I forgot my clothes home so I needed to drive back here and get it which is fine except.... I got out of work late and when I got in my car I noticed my cell had a miss call, it was the fitness place saying that Zumba had been moved to a earlier time.
Well I had no time to make it back. I will try another day.
Got home ready to watch tv... only to turn it on and noticed it looks like it's snowing. I think my tv is dying. Not cool.

I wanted bad food so bad, but I did not give in. YAY!

Here's to hoping my day goes smoother

I am in it

I signed up for a challenge.

It's called the X-Weighted challenge, it's based on a canadian tv weight loss show, which I just adore.
Great tips, great success stories and they really focus on all aspects of this journey.

I put in my weight, height, and measurements and it's a 26 weeks things so wish me luck.
It could possibly be enough to get me motivated and get my butt in gear.

WI in 2010

Not running away from it this time....Here it is I jumped on the scale and it had gone up in two weeks... not big surprise given I lost track (again)

278.8lbs... Scary!

So I am back on track I have brought my lunch the whole week, so that's a big change from what I had been doing in the last three months.

No exercise still but I am looking at taking zumba classes.
Some of the girls at work want to try it so nothing better then to do it with other people.

Hope everyone had some nice holidays and are back on track :)