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I've finally made a move in the right direction. I did something for me....I've given my notice at my current job.
I will work in a small town a little further away but at least it will be less stressful,better hours and the same money.

I will be mainly working alone so I believe I will be ok with taking my lunch everyday and hopefully that will keep me in check :)

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Hello!

I think i am starting to find the old me again.
I have been going to therapy, taking some me time, relationship going better, still eating like crap but started doing aquafitness so hopefully food choice will get better.

I have signed up for a photography class starting in a couple of weeks, i have always wanted to and a month ago my boyfriend bought me a new SLR camera, because I supported him in the college patch. He's saying thanks for all i have done but i really feel like he shouldn't have . ( but secretly very happy he did )

Hope everyone enjoyed their summer :)
I hope to keep in touch more ... although i have said that before.

Time to be honest

Times flies!

Been two months since my last update... here we go!

I had a consultation / information session for weight loss surgery. Got all the info, got totally freaked out and now I wait for my next step. The surgeon requires you to be evaluated by a psychologist, to see if you are mentally prepared for the changes.

I have opted to continue on this journey of getting prepared for gastric sleeve surgery. I am not 100% yet, but needed to decided on something so went with that. I will make a hard decision when the time comes.

I am still struggling in everyday life, and unfortunately keep gaining weight in the mean time.

Had a huge fight with my man tonight and very worried that I may be single very soon... add to my stress.

Missing in Action

I haven't been writting because I went on a couple of days shopping trip before easter and then on the way home we made an emergency stop at the hospital for my bf. Put it this way we walked in the ER at 4 and 4 hours later he was being put under for urgent surgery. Very scary times.
He's doing good, still in the hospital. So weight watchers is the furthest thing from my mind since saturday. I have been sleeping on a chair and eating here and there. Gonna be by his side until he's better then get back to it.

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Woohoo

Tonight's weight in went well... I lost 4lbs. For a total of 7.1 lbs . I am happy with that. So I have a little prize for a lucky winner... but you will have to wait for the giveaway... I will only do it when I lost 10lbs . Keep following me and checking up on me , it may be worth it.

Monday WI

I did go to my meeting tonight, I had to be honest with myself. Felt sick all week, ate really bad and did not care... dangerous behaviour. I did gain 1.7 lbs, but as soon as I left there I went to get some groceries so i have no excuse to not stick to it this week .

Monday WI

I did not get WI tonight , I am under the weather and can't even stand being awake so no mood to step on the scale. Will try to do good this week and go next week even if I don't lose I need to go.

Vacation

I had been really good since my WI(sort of)
I haven't done the exercise I know I need to get moving but last time that was a struggle as well. I hate it!
Today I drove to Boston and I am now on my little mini vacation just my boyfriend and I. We are gonna try to see if we can stick to a program while away since we tend to never sit at home always on the road for fun.
Today we did not do so well as it was mostly driving hard to eat healthy but I did pack some stuff.
There's also going to be some shopping and we will be bringing back stuff over the border. Always have better groceries in the U.S then in Canada.

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Weight in

I went to my first week weight in tonight... I lost 4.8lbs. I was glad with that and found my week pretty easy to stick to . Now the end of this week we go away on vacation for 4 days so it will be interesting to see how we do. I just have to keep going at it, no matter what. Wish me luck for the week ahead.

Welcome Back

Something to share... I rejoined Weight Watchers.
I went last night for the first time, I am excited to use the new program. Although I am unsure how I can eat so many more points and still lose weight.
My boyfriend decided to join me. We will see how we do ... might be a blessing to go together or really toxic. Either way we are committed to doing it together :)

I will probably post much more now. So hopefully some folks will still be around to read and care.

Special Day

I have been so busy since getting back from my trip that I kinda forgot to update all of you .... I shall just not right now.

Because today is my Birthday and I am off to enjoy a great weekend.

Planning on doing a post about my NYC trip complete with photos. Got lots to say I promise.

I am gonna enjoy myself because I ain't getting any younger so talk to you later on.

eeeek!!!

I am having some anxiety about my trip.

I am 7 days away from flying into New York, and the butterflies are just fluttering in my stomach.
What is gonna happen if I can't fit in the seats, what happens if people ridicule me , my best friend is a plus size girl too and it's just a small plan so rows of two only, but still. i don't want everyone starring at me if I need to squeeze in there.

Is this normal to feel this way?

I avoid flying for various reasons, would much rather drive but this time of year is not the best idea.
I have flown once when I was 9 and two years ago when I had lost most of my weight.

So having to gain so much weight the anxiety over flying is in overdrive.

I have a feeling I will be blogging about my experience with you all because I don't feel judged here :)

Hello 2011

I have decided not to even try to pretend the holiday season was good.... It was not.

Very difficult being the first holiday without my dad, being so down about my weight was not helping either.

I have been doing so so . Not the best, but not the worst.

I am going to get back on it when I am good and ready i know it.

A recent doctor visit revealed that i need some real good therapy and some deep searching because drugs alone will not bring me back up to the mental frame of where i need to be to gain control of my life again.

On a positive note, my best friend and I are headed to New York City in less then 2 weeks. I can say it's a dream come true for her to see NYC and it's great to be able to share that with her :)

I will try to update more often. No reason why I can't try to get some of my bloggy friends back.