Thursday mixer

OK so I am sitting here watching Oprah. It's about weight loss relapse... I should be on the show. It was like a lightning bolt struck my brain to say "look do you want to relapse and be super ubber obese again?? NO so hit the restart button."

Started my TOM tonight, feeling pain and going to sit on the couch to watch Grey's.

I need a new goal for the end of summer... not sure if it will be a number of just a goal. I will post it when I know it. Sometimes it's not about the number it's just about how far you have come. WOW a light bulb moment again!

I noticed something tonight while putting away my new shoes, more new shoes...these are in there as well as a pair of flip flops and a pair of strappy sandals I got at the end of the summer last year. On top of the already 20(exaggeration) pairs of sandals and flip flops I already have.

I have always have a shoe thing but I now know I buy them to make me feel better about myself...You know what am going to say right?! It was light bulb madness up in my head.

Instead of buying new clothes that don't necessarily fit the way I want, I can always buy shoes that will fit my feet and feel good about it.

Now that was bag of mixture and deep thoughts. Thanks for sticking with me!!

Back baby!

I am crazy happy... I got my PC back!

I am back in the game, now as for my weight... Let's not go there quite yet. I am doing really bad.

They are calling for a really warm day ( summer temperatures) hopefully this will inspire me to work hard towards my goal. I usually do much better in the summer then the stupid winter.

I have a question for all the fashionistas out there.... Are these cool?? I mean are they granny like or hookerish?????
I mean I think I like them but I have reservations about them, just want someones opinions. Be honest!

Update

Just a little note to say I forgot to mention my official WI this week.

I lost 0.6 lbs. It's better then gaining.

I am feeling much better just sound like an old hag with the deep cough I have going on.

I had so much fun this week, the beginning of the week truly sucked big time, but it turned around. I enjoyed my concert and comedy show. The comedy was so freaking hilarious I think I worked out my abs more there then I do with the crunches I attempt to do.

So next week I am going to focus on me, trying to get to the gym and taking time to do a good grocery to have some yummy food.
I have been so focused on the negative, feeling crappy emotionally and physically it's time to pick myself up and enjoy what I have.

Forecast for the weekend, sun and nice temps. Can't wait!!

I must go... I am blogging at work ( so not suppose to!) I feel all rebel!!

Still sick

Happy Earth Day!!

I wish I could find this invention at the pharmacy... it would save some searching for the kleenex box.

So I still feel like shit, I decided to take today off, I have a concert tonight and a comedy show tomorrow night. I really wanted to relax and take care of me to be ok for those two things.

Monday night after leaving the vet I decided to stop at the pharmacy to get tissues, and a bunch of drugs....So why oh why did I feel the need to buy a bag of marshmallows??

Before you tell me some great advice about throwing out the bag.... I already did(because it was empty) I ate a whole bag of marshmallows...WTF?

I'm still here, not doing so good but that's OK.

I still don't have my computer back, but my boss lent me her son's old laptop. I'm thankful but it's not super fast so I limit how much I do on it.

I took today and tomorrow off, just because I wanted to. I woke up this morning with a huge throat ache and a little stuffy. I am probably going to catch a cold that I have avoided all winter long. Sometimes your body yells at you to slow down, relax.

I have not worked out at all....
The food has been pretty bad, I went away for two days for work and did not too bad but lots of sugar.(candy, chocolate)
I am up on the scale but choose to ignore it and work at bringing it down.

My dog is hanging in, she's not eating, but has lots of energy. We go to the vet tonight for a follow up and I will see what they suggest. I don't want her to starve to death but at the same time I don't want to put her to sleep if she is still her happy self.

Please stick with me, I will be back hopefully this week, with regular posting and great WI's.

Experiencing technical difficulty, please stand by....

I am sooooo upset. I am telling you I am being shit on big time. I hope the universe ends it's super gruel joke on me soon.If you follow my blog you know all the stuff I am experiencing lately.

I was suppose to have a day at the zoo, egg hunting, with my friend's little boy. Who I don't get to see often just because I don't take the time.
Then this morning she called to say that her whole family was going and that her son (who is 2) decided he wanted to ride with his cousins and his grandmother. Well why the hell would I go then??? I was so sad. She said she was going too and that would be fun to spend time together. I declined to go, I had a headache and trust me it's for the best that I don't hang with a bunch of kids.
So I was really sad and a little hurt.... Then my PC broke down. COME ON!!!!

I brought to a friend's house( her man is a computer wiz) it's my hard drive.... More money gone.
I probably won't have a computer until another week. So freaking upset.

I just wanted to tell all of you just because I am not commenting and not posting any more new post I must say I am going to try my best not to eat everything to make the pain go away. I had pics to share with you guys too ... It will have to wait. I hope you guys won't forget about me.

Talk to you when my hard drive is fixed up.
Happy Easter!

Voted off

Not weight related but just wanted to say...(could be a spoiler if you have not tuned in to Survivor tonight)

Because of some sissy leg injury, just like that I am out of the Survivor pool at the office.

This is really weird because I have not watched it once this season, decided to tune in tonight, and my dude(Joe) gets hauled off the island due to injury.
I organize the stupid pool every time and never win.

Day off & WI

I am having a great day off. It feels good to have some real me time.

I slept in really late(10:00) I then putted around and decided to head into the dog park with my doggies.
Went to the vet to discuss my sick doggy and what to feed her to help her situation.

I just arrived home and it feels good to be off, do some cleaning, I will probably head into the gym tonight. If not tonight, no matter what tomorrow for sure.

OH yeah, I WI today, no big surprised I gained. I am pleasantly surprised it was not worse then it was. I only gained 0.6lbs. No big deal.

Also does anyone want to facebook me?? LOL
Seriously I just realized I must be the only looser on earth who does not have over 100 friends on facebook. I am too scared to ask anyone, so I just sit around and wait for people to ask me to befriend them. Now I looked the other day and realized I can get to one hundred...maybe. So if you want to help me achieve this here is my email address julieleb2006@hotmail.com.Thanks!!

New finds!

Ok TMI warning....

My body is finally fed up with the way I have been stuffing my face. I have bathroom issues and feel so tired plus just overall icky. So that's a good sign for me it means I don't want to feel this way so I try really hard to stay on the straight and narrow.

I decided to take tomorrow off, I need me time.

It's nice then I am off Friday and Monday for the Easter break. I love short weeks!!

I tried two new things this week.

I was trying not to give in to regular chips when I found these at Shoppers, POPCHIPS!

Now I love Hungry girl's email but I am always so frustrated because when you live in Canada you don't get the stuff she promotes.

I have seen this in her newsletter and was so happy they were on sale, I bought some and I must say they are tasty.

I want to try other flavors now.

I am also a very lazy cook, I love sweet potatoes but they take too much time. So I found these in my grocer's freezer.

Yeah, they are not as healthy as the real thing, but I must say I was impressed. They are OK. I don't think I will buy them often, I would rather take the time and do it right. I have noticed you can buy SP already all cut up in the veggie section, might try those instead.

Tired Monday

Yesterday's post was not self pity, it is purely meant for me to vent and realize what I did, to help me move on. I hope I did not sound like a giant baby saying I failed. Life happens, everyone will hit bumps in the road, I just happen to hit many potholes. :)

I did do better yesterday, not as good as I would have liked. I did not make it to the gym.
The repairman for my phone was all done by 3 then I had to rush to visit my dad. I wanted to go workout after but decided to come home. LAZY!

Tonight I was suppose to do a pilates class, I will bring my stuff, something tells me the person who is suppose to come with me will have forgotten and I will use that as a great excuse to go home.

Last I want to leave you with this: I hate Mondays....But I hope you have a good one!

Oops I did it again...

I binged big time. This is hard for me to admit because for two years I did not really do this kind of stuff. Now it's becoming a regular thing on the weekends.

Yesterday I had a muffin for breakfast, then ran out the door to run errands. Got to the grocery store starving, which means a cart full of extras and a big total at the end.
I decided in my little brain that it was OK to have McDonald's, if only I would have stopped there.
While shopping I bought a chocolate bar(which I never do) ate that for dessert after my fattening lunch.

At the grocery store I had bought ice cream(I was craving and it was on sale) I had to open that up to taste it.(making sure it's not expired) LOL

Let's see then I had supper, made myself a burger ,sweet potato fries, baked broccoli(wanted to take pics but battery dead on camera) mushrooms and onions.
More ice cream followed with a bunch of sunflower seeds.
Oh yeah let's not forget the candy (sweettarts) then entered my mouth along with a couple of chips.

WOW I can't believe I was this honest. It's hard to admit when you pig out for no reason.

Today is a new day, I am stuck here all day because my phone is not working and they are sending a technician out between 8-5.
I am going to do some house cleaning, hopefully burn some calories. I hope on making it to they gym it's been like 3 weeks since I set foot in there.

WI

I stepped on the scale to expect worst case scenario, I think my scale is the nicest thing ever. It said I actually lost weight.......WOW!
OK not a big amount but none the less a minus!
I lost 0.4 lbs, with all I ate, no exercise, super stress, and TOM, I will take the 0.4 and run.
For a grand total of 125.2lbs.

I just hope my scale was not playing an April Fool's day joke on me.