Feeling better

I believe I am feeling better.
I am tired and still not up to eating a three course meal but I am heading into work.

Remember the rash bumps I had on my face?? Well add broken blood vessels all around my eyes. I look terrible. Thank god I did not have a date tonight. Who am I kidding I have not had a date in 2 years. LOL

I did not really have big plans tonight. Maybe a house party but I don't think I will be going too far.
For one I am not up to it. Plus they are calling for some snow and high winds. Tonight and tomorrow.

I did jump on the scale ( I could not help myself) and it was still up from my last WI but at least I lost most of what I had put on during my 2 week meltdown.
I won't officially WI until next Wednesday. Still time to at least return to where I was 3 weeks ago.

Have a safe and happy New Year's Eve!!

McPukester

There was a knock on my door, I answered it around 11:30pm.... It was Mr.Stomach flu.
I should have slammed the door in his face... LOL



I am writing this because I can't sleep every time I lay down, I need to get back up.
I know I wanted to start loosing weight and not wait for the new year but this is surely not what I had in mind for a new program.

I was planning on a WI today or Wednesday but I think I will miss it completely and just go next week at my regular meeting. I know this means I am no longer in the BLBE challenge but I've got a good excuse.

I have not been this sick in a long time. I had the day off today that's a blessing in disguise.

Stick to a schedule

Back to work today... which means back to a schedule.
I think it's easier to eat well if I am on schedule.
I am off tomorrow but it won't matter because there is no more bad food around.

I have this weird rash like bumps all over my face... one has to wonder could it be some of the junk I ate for 2 weeks?? I think it's an allergic reaction.
So I look like a monster... that will teach me to eat crap.
It's funny how my body actually reacted. I mean TMI here but I noticed a change in my BM. It's funny to think I used to eat like that 24/7, 2yrs ago and thought it was normal to always have poopy problems.

Having received many gift cards for clothing store for Christmas this year, I need to get my butt in gear to loose another size so I can go used them!! LOL

Last day no excuses

Alright well I finally faced the scale and wowsers it's horrible.
It's exactly what I was thinking I had gained but to see it it's shocking.
I did pig out for 2 weeks and deserve my gain. I pitied myself and now I got my head straight and gonna start loosing the dreaded extra pounds .
Mini depression done!
I must say for 2 yrs of being on the program I think I can allow myself this meltdown. The difference is I acknowledged it and moved on.

Today is my last food related celebration. My mother's side of the family we normally have Christmas supper but my uncles mother in law is living her last Christmas in the hospital. So we cancelled it to have them celebrate with her.
Today we are getting together for gift exchange and lunch.

I hope to make the most of my gym membership which is done Jan 10 and I am not sure if I will rejoin.
I love WW but I am looking into different programs to help me kick start this year.
I will get to goal in 2009.

I need to get ready to smile and pretend I love family gatherings... Which I really don't. LOL

I'm here!

WOW... first thanks for the people who checked up on me. This will definitely be helpful once I get back in the saddle.
I have been in a REAL rut. food wise off the wagon, exercise jumped off the horse and well my emotions on a roller coaster.
I decided not to write and not to read most of the blogs just because I wanted to disappear to collect my thoughts.
I have enjoyed my " I don't give a shit" mood for 2 weeks.

I am ready to get back on for sure. My body has been reacting to the horrible choices I have made. Which makes me realize I could never go back to where I was two years ago.

I am really emotional and finding the holidays really hard this year. I hope you will join me in continuing this journey. Honestly please don't quit on me. I promise to have more post more often once I am feeling like myself again, and I would want nothing more then all of my great blogger friends around.

Merry Christmas to you and your loved ones!

It's Friday YAY!!

I slept in a little but woke up with a headache...

I am getting ready to head into town. You guessed it to start/finish my shopping.
A co worker and I will be heading into work to collect all the gift we got a single mom and her son for Christmas and deliver them to her. I can't wait to see her face! Giving always feels nice.

So I missed WI due to the snow and I was looking at the calendar today I think my meeting center might be closed for 2 weeks due to holidays.
Must find another location because if I go 2 more weeks without a proper WI that will be a disaster.

Thursday

Today is my Friday at work because I have the day off tomorrow. I decided to take some time off before the nutty holidays. I won't be back to work until Tuesday the 23rd and 24th half a day. Then the week after might be a little crazy for me. Got to love the year end!

It did snow yesterday. The drive home was not that bad, I take the highway home so it's many times better then taking the local roads.
I did not even call to see if my WI was cancelled . I knew it would be.

So I have been off the wagon completely. No I don't want to go back to where I was but I think I need to totally jump off and then dive right back in. I have been off for a whole 1-2 weeks. All that was missing from my old way was eating out everyday. That is the only thing I did not indulge in. Once I go there I know I ain't' coming back.
So, the end results I gained, I feel horrible, I am OK with that.
For 2 years I have been faithful even thru the holidays. 2 yrs I gave it my all. I think I am aloud to fall and get hurt. It's part of life.
I will get back into it.I just don't know when!

Tonight I must start my Christmas shopping. Tomorrow I will try to finish it.
A co worker and I need to finish buying articles for a family who needed help for the holidays.
We collect money all year round and choose a charity at the end of the year. This year we opted to help a local family who needed assistance.
We will pick up the remainder of things they need and head out to meet them Friday afternoon. It will be interesting to see their faces with the nice things we got them.

I need to get going... Must clean off car from the snow. Also must allow myself to stop for coffee because I have a feeling it's gonna be a long day.

They are calling for a snow storm here today.

Nothing yet, but the drive home will probably be yucky.

I guess my WW meeting will probably be cancelled. Not such a bad thing for me.

I have not made any advances on my Christmas shopping. It's so frustrating. I have been shopping 3 times. All three times I bought something.... FOR ME! GRR!

I am off Friday I will attempt to go start and finish all in one day.

A little recap of my weekend. Saturday I did not too much.
Sunday I was not so pleased to see TOM drop in. Huge cramps... YUCKY.
It was my father's Xmas party at his home. He lives in a nursing home and put it this way it's not really my type of music but it makes him happy when I go listen the them with him.

I went to the grocery store and bought some stuff to make some chili. I have not had time yet but I will make it this week sometime.

Tonight I had a work supper at the Keg. It was good I did not over do it at all.
Plus I was wearing a new top that I bought with some Xmas money I already received. YAY!

I will post pics and recipe of my chili soup thingy when I have a chance to do it.

Friday humour

Thanks for the great support you have provided. I just get down on myself.
It's embarrasing that ever since starting the BLBE challenge I have not done well. I mean I have not done terrible. One good thing came out of it... I joined the gym and actually go once in a while! I am loosing inches and I can only wish that WW would take that into account.

In honour of my period commencing this weekend. I have received a funny email with this letter in it.
Supposely this is a real letter that a US woman wrote to the company who makes Always Pads.

> Dear Mr. Thatcher,
I have been a loyal user of your 'Always' maxi pads for over 20 years and I appreciate many of their features. Why, without the LeakGuard Core or Dri-Weave absorbency, I'd probably never go horseback riding or salsa dancing, and I'd certainly steer clear of running up and down the beach in tight, white shorts. But my favorite feature has to be your revolutionary Flexi-Wings. Kudos on being the only company smart enough to realize how crucial it is that maxi pads be aerodynamic. I can't tell you how safe and secure I feel each month knowing there's a little F-16 in my pants.

Have you ever had a menstrual period, Mr. Thatcher? Ever suffered from the curse'? I'm guessing you haven't. Well, my time of the month is starting right now. As I type, I can already feel hormonal forces violently surging through my body. Just a few minutes from now, my body will adjust and I'll be transformed into what my husband likes to call 'an inbred hillbilly with knife skills.' Isn't the human body amazing?

As Brand Manager in the Feminine-Hygiene Division, you've no doubt seen quite a bit of research on what exactly happens during your customer's monthly visits from 'Aunt Flo'. Therefore, you must know about the bloating, puffiness, and cramping we endure, and about our intense mood swings, crying jags, and out-of-control behavior. You surely realize it's a tough time for most women. In fact, only last week, my friend Jennifer fought the violent urge to shove her boyfriend's testicles into a George Foreman Grill just because he told her he thought Grey's Anatomy was written by drunken chimps. Crazy!

The point is, sir, you of all people must realize that America is just crawling with homicidal maniacs in Capri pants... Which brings me to the reason for my letter. Last month, while in the throes of cramping so painful I wanted to reach inside my body and yank out my uterus, I opened an Always maxi-pad, and there, printed on the adhesive backing, were these words: 'Have a Happy Period.'

Are you f------ kidding me? What I mean is, does any part of your tiny middle-manager brain really think happiness - actual smiling, laughing happiness, is possible during a menstrual period? Did anything mentioned above sound the least bit pleasurable? Well, did it, James? FYI, unless you're some kind of sick S&M freak, there will never be anything 'happy' about a day in which you have to jack yourself up on Motrin and Kahlua and lock yourself in your house just so you don't march down to the local Walgreen's armed with a hunting rifle and a sketchy plan to end your life in a blaze of glory.

For the love of God, pull your head out, man! If you have to slap a moronic message on a maxi pad, wouldn't it make more sense to say something that's actually pertinent, like 'Put down the Hammer' or 'Vehicular Manslaughter is Wrong', or are you just picking on us?

Sir, please inform your Accounting Department that, effective immediately, there will be an $8 drop in monthly profits, for I have chosen to take my maxi-pad business elsewhere. And though I will certainly miss your Flex-Wings, I will not for one minute miss your brand of condescending bullshit. And that's a promise I will keep. Always. . .

Best,
Wendi Aarons
Austin , TX

Crappy WI

Quickly, I went to WI last night I gained 2.4 lbs... No big surprise and I deserve all of it. I have been off the truck for 4 days. It's out of of my system now I am ready to face a difficult time of year.

As for the revamped WW program... Nothing revamped there. Quite disappointed so far.
All it is , it's adding the core and flex plan together to get a better bang for your points. Like I already knew that!

I am gonna stick with it this week. No matter what.
I do have a social event next Monday for work. It's at The Keg, I have never been so I think I will research the menu and choose carefully.

They are calling for nasty freezing rain and crappy ice pellets. I will decide if I head into the gym once I leave the office tonight. If not I will make it tomorrow since they are calling for +14 for Friday. I think mother nature is having mood swings!!

Progress pics

It's cold... BRRR!

I have not done anything for Christmas yet. No gifts bought, did not even mail my cards yet. Can you say... Not into it this year.

I have no motivation for anything. I honestly think it's the time of year.

Someone offered me 4 snow tires for my car, now I just need to make sure they are the right size. This is so exciting, fingers crossed they fit!

Ok so since I have been Miss. depressing pants. I decided to try to show myself the progress I have made. I have assembled 3 pics, from 2006,2007,2008 and I must post this on my fridge.

I am gonna share the pics with all my bloggy friends! Who in my opinion, are the best!!

Blah Monday

Not much to say.

I pretty much loafed around all weekend. Saturday was a total write off. Sunday I napped until I was ready to finally go out. I went to pick up my groceries.
I did pick up some clementines which I just love!

It snowed last night I have not yet gone outside to see how much but I can hear the wind blowing, I'm pretty sure I am gonna freeze my ass. I hate cold days.

I did not exercise, I did fall off the wagon a little over the weekend. The lack of sleep made my judgement fall in the drain.
It's OK nothing like starting over(again) on a Monday!!

Party details

My office staff party is over!

Here's the deal this won't be a long post. I am sooo freaking tired.

You see I am what some people might call a night hawk. I tend to get a second wind late at night.

For the second year in a row, I convince some party people to keep the party going after everyone has left. This year same thing I convinced four other people to switches houses and dance for 2 hours straight. Which leads me into coming home at 5AM! Alright last night but I am feeling the pain today.

I actually had a nice time. Not as fun as I had hoped but still a great evening.

It was at a boss's house and they had hired a amazing chef to cook for us. He's so great! He cooks Chinese/ Thai food. The best food I think I have ever had.

It was easy to eat well and I did not eat too much because I could serve myself. There were so many courses that I kept taking little portions which in the end made me eat less.

So here's the entertainment part, he also does your Chinese horoscope. He's so funny, I am sure some people pissed their pants.

When he got to me he hit the nail on the head. I had the longest session he even had to sit down.

I won't go into details (too tired) but I will say something that made everyone laugh... I am not a morning person(I'm really not!) and I should stop buying black clothes, more colors like orange, green, blues. He's amazing!

I gave my camera to my co worker because she loves to snap pics every time we are together so I let her tell people to say cheese! Anyways here's great pic of me in my new shirt! After that Mr. Chef called her miss paparazzi. LOL

He had nicknames for everyone and let me say for the most part the fit well the personalities.

Mine was Miss sensitive!

My shirt dilemma over

So I woke up this morning with a achy throat... YUCKY! I hope it goes away and does not invite any other cold symptoms to join in.

Tonight is my office staff party. I was so stressed about what to wear over something so dumb.
I am working all day so I will bring my change of clothes there. I am sure I will have lots of pics to share.

Here's the deal, food probably won't be that bad because I am not gonna pig out in front of anyone. GOOD!
I do plan to drink lots of water during the day,so that I stay hydrated! GOOD!!
I have opted not to drink this year... Will see how that goes... Could be UGLY!

Happy Friday everyone!!

WI and new top!

First thing first... I STS. No big surprise.

I was told there is a new revamping of the program next week. I am excited to see if something new will give me a fresh start.

Tonight I went shopping. I brought along someone to help. I got a new top. It's another tank top but it's got a bit of shine. In my opinion and my friend, it's actually very holidayish.

I will be wearing a black thingy over it and I got new earrings, necklace and bangles to go with!

Now I feel better about it. Just need to worry about my food intake. LOL

Here's a pic of new top and the old one which is still an option.
I tend to change my mind alot!!

Tuesday

I took the day off from the gym last night. I am going tonight after work. My WI is tomorrow and my dumb scale is showing I am up one pound... IT must change!

I can't believe we are so close to Christmas. I have not even started to buy stuff. I think I should have been a man... because I am always shopping Christmas eve with all the men in the city. LOL

On top of not being ready for the holidays, I find out my car needs to have something done. I am bringing it to the garage on Thursday. I am crossing my fingers and toes it does not cost me an arm and a leg!

I woke up in the middle of the night to start worrying about what to wear and prepare for the staff party on Friday.
I tried on that top pictured in my other post and took a pic with me in the shirt... Holy MOOOO!
Now I need to go shopping to try to find something I will be happy in.