Boo... It's Halloween!

I love Halloween!

I need to remember to keep my hands and mouth away from the candy bowl :)
I was invited to 2 Halloweenie party's but I think I am gonna enjoy a nice relaxing evening in my pj costume at home ;)
I worked extra late last night and did not make it to the gym. I don't know about today either however no excuse for Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday.

I hope everyone has a great Friday and a spooky Halloween!!

I found a costume for pets at a goodwill store and it was really cheap... Got home it did not fit my male dog he's way too big for the little costume. My female who is really a devil , it fit just right sort of! Here's a lovely pic of Sadie not looking pleased about the costume size being a large and not fitting right! LOL

WI

Seriously bummed!
I worked out hard and still saw no improvement. I will continue to sweat my arse off at the gym, and hopefully next week will be the week I see a nice number on the scale.

My grand return!

I am back!!!!

So in the time I was gone:
- kept strict on my food
-worked overtime a lot
-had some stressful days at work, some people are just making hard to enjoy my office.
-I missed WI
-I rescued a baby kitten that was screaming in my window one morning. He was starving and cold. I decided not to keep him but did find a perfect home.


Now fast forward to this week.
I had not gone to the gym in a week, I felt like crap. It's hard to get back into it after stopping. I had a motivational speech from someone on Sunday, I can't explain it but something just clicked.
I went to the gym following that talk and did the best workout ever.
I stayed at the gym for a full hour and could not believe how long I did cardio for. AMAZING!
That motivated me to go again last night.
Two kick ass workouts back to back... YAY ME!!!

The sucky part, I jumped on the scale for a peek and of course I STS?? Please wish me skinny vibes for tomorrow for my official WI.

Still Around

Just a quick note to say I have not vanished.

I just worked over time all week and was just battling some emotions on top of that.
I am emotionally drained and super tired.
I will update when I have more brain power.

Halloween Ideas

I have a question for my blogger friends.

Does any one have any good ideas for Halloween costume? I have never dressed up as an big girl let alone I think I never got dressed up as an adult.
I have been invited to 2 parties not sure if I am going but both you need to be dressed up.
I am just gathering ideas to start looking.

I like original but I can't look like a dumb ass. don't forget I need to be appropriate with my size. So no french maid costume for me. LOL :)

Tuesday Mornings aren't pretty

It's hard to get out of bed when it's still dark out.
I was so tired last night I left the office at 6:40 and had not had supper was ready to crawl into comfy clothes and sleep. I did go to bed extra early but I am still tired this morning.
My gym partner left at 5 pm and said she had too many things to do so could not meet me at the gym.
It was a rough day at the office with all our training done by conference call and internet. Some people need more hands on then that and that's why the bosses have asked me to come in early today to make sure things go smoothly.

Yesterday recap:
Left work too late.
did not have anything to eat.
Started my monthly gift at work unprepared....
having to work this morning instead of this afternoon.
You all know what I am getting to... I did not drag my large arse to the gym.
Yeah I took a sick day from working out.

Will I go today?? If my bosses stick to our deal it means I finish early today I will bring my bag in case I have time to work out.

Chilly Monday

It's a chilly morning... I know I have to get used to this it's gonna get colder.

I went to the gym yesterday had a good workout, felt great! I hope to make it there today after work.

Today our office is closed because of the computer upgrades. We are training today in the new program. A nice change from our normal Monday chaos.

My mother came back from her trip to the US and I had told her to buy fibre one bars flavors we did not have here and anything 100 calorie. I was a bit picky on trying to find chocolate covered pretzels in 100 cal. SHE FOUND THEM!!

Here is a sample of the things she brought me.

I can't wait to try them all.

Have a good Monday

Weekend Update

When I moan and groan on Wednesday about my WI, remind me that this...

Does not help my weight loss!

Ok so I did not eat them all at once it was actually all on different days. But still not very proud. This has probably been the worse I have done in one week of junk and I am still craving more. I thought if I am honest and confess it might make me stop craving more junk... We will have to wait and see on that one.

Today I brought my best friend's son to Boo at the zoo the light version for small kids.
It was fun it was like going to the zoo but decorated for Halloween. They also had a couple of activities going for them. I took him all dressed up in lion costume that was pretty cute.

TGIF!

I am happy it's Friday, although I am not looking forward to my work day ahead.
We are doing a major upgrade on our computer systems. Today we need to handle a Friday without PC's, we are lucky enough that there is no patients scheduled so it won't be crazy busy, but it will still keep us running.

I need to get to the gym tonight after work. I have not gone since Monday.

I bought a new camera yesterday, mine has been broken for a little over a month and I am like a mini paparazzi so I was going nuts whiteout it.
I researched , I looked for online reviews. This camera seemed perfect and it was on sale. I bought it last night and I am not 100% sure I like it :(
I find when you look at the screen the picture is all grainy but when you snap the pic it's so nice and clear...Is this normal?
I had a 3.2 mega pixel I upgraded to a 8 maybe that's the difference I see??
I think I will keep the receipt in case I decided to return it.

My mother took off for a shopping trip to the states and I gave her a small list of food I would like her to bring back. Can't wait to see if she finds the stuff I asked for!

I hope you all have a great Friday!!

WI Wednesday

Today I had the day off. I had lots of plans to go shopping for new sneakers, sports bra... I was also planning on getting WI then going to the gym.
All that went down the drain.
My best friend had her twin baby girls yesterday. They are born premature so they are very tiny.
I wanted to see them and I ended staying in the hospital to keep her company all day.

I did make it to WI tonight and I only lost 0.6 lbs. Explain to me about working out Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday to only loose not even 1 lbs, WTF???!!
Tell me to keep going it's gonna show up eventually.
I just hate working out and I thought after seeing fantastic results would be the push I needed to get to goal.

I had forgotten to bring my old clothes and pics tonight, due to feeling like crap with a huge headache. I was talking to my leader who asked me to go to another town with her to a WW meeting. I guess she talks about me (without naming names) and would like me to show my face and tell my story so far.
She tells me the energy is different. I hope so because our meeting is not too peppy. I don't even think her heart is in it. This is why she wants me to accompany her to the other one. They are more energetic and would appreciate it more. Of course I said yes. But with the promise that I will bring my old fat clothes next week to my meeting first.

Doctor check

I skipped out on working out tonight after work.
I don't have good excuses but I feel like I worked out 4 days straight which is better then I have ever done. So I am aloud to skip a day.
I was tired, cranky, worried over a friend, and had a huge headache... Also by my calculations I believe TOM is on his way.

On a good note, I went to the doctor's today here's my report.

- before loosing weight I was on two types of blood pressure meds. One "water" pill & 10mg pill.
- After loosing 100 lbs I was able to drop to 1 "water" pill & 5 mg pill.
-Today I was cut down to only my "water" pill !!!!!!!!!!!!

Also my blood test showed my sugar count to be really low. It has always been low but not this low.
She said that most people who are diagnosed Diabetic by the time it shows as high sugar count it's too late. It means there is no more insulin being produced.
Half of my pancreas was probably not working anymore and then other half was working double hard to pump some insulin in my body.
Now this is why my sugars have always been normal even has an obese woman.

Now my pancreas does not get it does not need to work as hard because I am smaller and eating healthier. This is why after fasting for the blood test, my sugar was super low.

Looking back she said I was probably pre-diabetic. I also have my father who is diabetic and that goes against me.
If I had not lost weight, I probably would have been diagnosed with diabetes. I actually teared up , for me it was like avoiding cancer.

See my father is super diabetic and in result of not looking after himself, has both legs cut off and some fingers gone as well. His vision is deteriorating. This to me is what I did not want to become.
I always thought I was safe because my blood test always showed my sugars to be good, and the doctor kept saying I was lucky.
Little did we know....I am so happy for the changes.

My doctor is super supportive and is extremely happy for me.
She said as a GP she rarely gets to take pills away or lower doses. In the world we live in , she said she normally gives speeches and then hikes up the meds because no one listens until it's too late.
She said she wishes she could bring me with her to show people it could be done. So sweet!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

So it's turkey day here in Canada. I am actually happy because I have the day off! I was able to avoid all fattening turkey dinners.

I missed my turkey craving but I will make up for it at Christmas. LOL

I am thankful for some things in my life.

-My mother

-My doggies

- The great support from lovely peeps on my blog!!

Even thought this weekend was a bit of a struggle, I took the time to realize my life is not all bad. I have to be thankful I am alive & no major health issues & all my limbs in perfect working condition and that I am finally loosing weight to better myself.

So I went to the gym Friday for the first time.

Saturday I took the dogs for a walk/ small jog.

Sunday I decided I was gonna head that way alone. In my mind I told myself if there was more then 4 cars in the parking lot I would not get out. I got there and there was ZERO cars in the lot. So in I go!!

I did cardio for 30 mins.

This morning the lady I am trying out the gym with called to see if I wanted to meet her there this morning. I actually agreed... I hate mornings and working out so put them together is pure hell.

It actually was not that bad. I only did another 30 mins but hey this is the most I have done ever.

The gym was actually busy and I felt uncomfortable a couple of times, but I learned my lesson I am just gonna go in the evening and weekends. Not holiday mondays when everyone is off and is overstuffed with turkey! LOL

I am really proud I am actually not minding this at all... Maybe the novelty will wear off but for some reason I don't think so!

Gym Review!

I made it to the gym today right after work.
I had butterflies in my tummy right before entering but after being there for like 20 minutes I just gave it my all and actually enjoyed myself.
I did not do a super workout because my co-worker/friend and I were sampling the machines more then actually breaking a sweat.
I did sweat for at least 30minutes. Which is more then I have done in a long time.

I hope this works out for me.
It's a bit of a dull gym but I like how it's not busy and also very well divided.

We have one month free to try it and I will work out my hardest. I hope I will have good results from it and then that might encourage me to continue.

Thursday update

Ok so I had a weird week.

As for WI, I stayed the same which I guess I can handle. I have not had this happen alot so I would much rather see no change on the scale then a gain.

I am officially a gym rat at least for the free 1 month trial I have scored.

So I think my first real workout at a gym is tomorrow. I have a co-worker who is gonna come with me and that will force me to try it. I loose nothing.

I will like it, I will go and I will kick some serious ass.

Sure I may have started slow in this challenge and have really stuck in a ditch with my goals but lookout world I am gonna sweat like there is no tomorrow and show some awesome results!

Wish me luck not to embarrass myself some of my loyal readers may remember my first gym experience this was back in 2007 and it was not really a gym just a small room with some equipment if you would like to read the embarrassment I wish not to repeat in a REAL gym click here....Gym review

Confessions

Oh, how many times in two years I have said this... I will do better next week.
I have to be honest and say way too many.

I did not do great at all this week. Yesterday, I did really good right up until supper time.
I ate my good supper then had a little snack... but then my empty black hole of a stomach was still starving.
I ate handfuls of this, fistfuls of that.
Then my stomach decided that was way too much way too quick... Not to give TMI,but I had time to read a magazine while sitting (know what I am saying?!)

Felt like crap afterwards but that's what a small binge will do to ya.

So my question is why don't I learn from my mistakes?? Why is it some days I am like a contestant on Survivor who just won a food reward. Scarfing it down faster then seagulls.

As cliche as it sounds I will start fresh today not next week, not next month .... TODAY!!

I hope I am not the only one who feels like we know better but yet still allow these stupid upsets.

I thought joining a challenge would help me stray from stupid messes, all it did is made me feel like I had to confess. LOL

Friday Ramblings

I am so tired I feel so drained... I think I will be in bed very shortly.

I have been dealing with a couple of stresses in the past month, today was no different.

I think I might be loving my Tim Hortons coffee fix a little too much.

I have discovered I love coffee black but with half hot chocolate. SOO yummy!!!
I had one for like 3 days straight. Not a big deal but considering I have not drank coffee in like 10 years...It's a little weird.

I have agreed to check out a local gym for a week. I am just waiting on my boss to work is magic with the gym owner. One of my co workers said she would come with me just to encourage me to keep going after the week trial.

I will update when I know for sure when I will be actually going.

I need to get a good sports bra ASAP!

I bought spaghetti squash and still don't know why or what I am gonna do with it... I just wanted to buy it??! LOL

WI results

Tonight was my WI.
I had two little boosts:

1. I lost 1.4 lbs! For a total of 122.2 lbs gone!!
2. I go to a small location for WW, the old leader seems to be gone... But the new meeting leader is the lady who used to take the payments.
Anyways I noticed in the past month she is giving the meetings. I never stay for them so I am not sure if it's forever or just temporary.
She asked me tonight if I had kept old clothes that are now too big. I did keep maybe a pair of pants and a sweater. She asked me to bring them in not next week but the week after to inspire other members. She then complimented me on how good I looked!
So I guess I need to dig out my fat wear and show strangers how far I have come. I am so shy this could just kill me but yet I actually don't feel nervous and am very happy to do it. I think I may enjoy being up there telling my story thus far.

I wear a lab coat at work and I have had the same one for the past 2 years, I love it big my co-workers keep calling it my tent...
It's a 3X I believe?
Today we are ordering new ones and I finally fit in the designer ones all the girls get...In a XL!!
Holy crap I am almost in tears to think of this ... Mind you they are made very big and I can't button it up YET!!