Scale, Stroll , Saturday

Old scale:

I will always remember how you used to tell me I was over the limit... I stashed you in my closet until I was ready to show you who's boss. Now you tell me what I weight very nicely but just not precise enough...

Come to find out it weights in increments of 0.5lbs only if you are under 200 lbs... Which I am not.

So I decided to splurge on a new scale and find one that will weight me at 0.2 lbs no matter what weight I am.

New scale:

I think you're pretty now let's see how we get along...so far I am 0.4 lbs more then I was Wednesday... You are not starting on the right path. :-)

I forgot about my little play date I had with two co workers and our dogs to go walking in a nature park. I did not even come close to meeting them at 1. Too busy shopping.

Normally I would have just came home did some house stuff . Instead since I had scheduled in a walk , I took my doggies out for our own walk.

It was great. I went to a very nice trail that we always go in the summer and it's like 5 mins from my house(by car) it's groomed but yet walking in the snow is like walking in sand. It was a great freaking walk.

It hurts, I sweated, plus it was snowing a little. It was great the dogs had a blast.

Deep down I love walking by myself and use the winter months to hibernate I really should not. I can go to that little trail by myself once in a while you meet one person walking, or a ATV driving by but apart from that it's complete solitude.

I have always wanted to put a pic of me after working out... Since I hardly do any exercise here is my first one!

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Friday!!

TGIF, that's all I need to say about that.

So last night the evil fat girl inside me won the battle. Just for last night.
I decided to use my flex points on McDonald's supper. I was angry and stressed after work so I did what I am used to... Eating my rotten Ronnie.
You know what I would like to sit here and say it was horrible and it made me feel gross, truth be told it was really good and filled a blank.
Now it's over I need to be extra careful this week not to go over in my points, and I guess I should really try to work out.

Tonight on the agenda, I am gonna catch up with all bloggy friends, I feel like I have been slipping lately.
I might head into Costco, I have not been there since before Christmas. I love Costco, but always walk out with nothing??!
I am also gonna buy ESBM book, I might even look into a new scale.

Have a good Friday!

WI

Official WI... I lost 1 lb which is good.

I think I need a new scale. It's digital but yet it's always XXX.0 never anything different after the period. Could it because I am too fat for the scale... It should not I need to make someone skinny jump on if it's makes a different.
I would love to get a nice high tech scale... Stay tuned, I might just go get one.

Tuesday

I am better mentally. Thanks to everyone who can empathize with my weekend downfall.

Last night I got home from work made home made tacos, and literally fell on the couch with no energy.
I had told myself I would head back into the gym but I just could not bring myself to leave the house.

I think I need to switch up my eating plan, I am sick and tired of the same old boring food.
Maybe I need to get the ESBM recipe book I hear so many good things about.

I also need to waddle walk my ass to the gym.

So I don't expect miracles on the scale tomorrow, however I will be happy if I don't gain anything else.

WTF weekends

What is my problem??? I am so mad...

For two years on this program I have zipped by the weekends no problem. I am aware most of us struggle on weekends. I have never been one of those people.

Now since December I struggle so much. I eat like there is a black hole in my stomach and I can honestly say I binge and then feel bad about it.
What is going on??

I know I have had struggles in my life past couple of months. I just don't understand why I do so well on weekdays, but Saturday and Sunday roll around and look out all you can eat buffet.

I think I may need a get away weekend. It's crazy to think I have nothing really to get away from just every day life.

Easy Saturday

Remember a while back when I ordered jacket and snow pants from Sears?? Well it did not work out.

I looked like a fat balloon. So I returned the jacket and the snow pants I am still unsure...

Today I decided to try to find shirts for the gym (which I am still paying for and not attending) I ended up finding nothing for T-shirts but found a winter jacket cheap!!

Even better I had gift certificates from Xmas for that store so I did not pay a thing for the jacket.

I did groceries for the week, I am good to go!

Nothing exciting except I did buy fun little things.

Mini bananas how cute!

Tortilla chips strips and crispy onions for salad.

Sunkist Almond Accents No salt, oven roasted almonds again for salads.

Can I take your order??? NO!

Yesterday, I had a stressful day. Now I am a stress eater. When I get angry or stressed I tend to stuff my face with junk to make myself feel better.

I left work 2 hours after I was suppose to and got in the car, turned to the right instead of left, proceeded to the MacDonald down the road.
Realized it was not gonna fix anything, rolled up my window and drove away without any smelly rotten Ronnie's in my car!
YAY!!!!!

Got home treated myself to a lovely sandwich, then had a portion of reduce fat Pringles chips and I was happy then pig in poop!

Today, I am sure my day won't be great but I am gonna try to remain in a good mood, and tonight make myself something really tasty for supper... No take out no matter what.

WI... Get over it!

I must say I am not surprised... I WI at +1 lbs. Let's get over it.
It could have been worse and I don't feel bad about it.
I can honestly say I screwed up this weekend, I have learned my lesson. I am moving on.SERIOUSLY!

Tonight I have a funeral to attend so I will bringing my gym clothes to try to head in there after the services.

Sorry if I let my A-team down, I promise I will kick some ass and take names next week.

I always start these stupid survey at work, when everyone is stressed and bitchy. Today we needed some of my humorous one... If you could sleep with any celebrity who would it be??
Who's yours???
I have too many to name... It's been two virgin years for me people... Everyone looks yummy :)

Soup minus liquid

Nothing too much to report about my boring weekend.

Today I decided to make a chili/soup. Now I am not a soup person so I drain all the liquid from it. I know it sounds weird but it's my only way to eat soup.

It looked like this when it was in the pot.

This is what it looked like in my container getting ready for the freezer.

It's pretty good, I made it with ground turkey instead of ground beef.

At least now I will have something in the freezer for the days where I get home too late to start cooking supper.

Nothing interesting to say

It's freaking cold here just like everywhere.... I hate -35 with windchill. Give me snow anytime over this crap.

I did join the gym again. I joined for a year. Only because my boss is awesome and got me a really good deal with the manager. I have not gone yet, but when I am good and ready I will rock it.

I had a wacky day today. It started out bad, got up late and it was so cold out. Then I got to work it seemed like it was gonna be a good day. It turn out OK, but then I ran into some emotions over being single, having my ex call today after not speaking to him in a couple of months , missing my old life. ( my ex and I have a good relationship, so it's not weird that he called)

I sometimes wonder if tears weight anything because if so I should be weighting way less then I do now.
A good thing: I don't normally eat when I am sad or depressed. So food did not comfort me this time!

Food wise I have been doing really good!
I need to watch myself over the weekend. I am gonna try to head into the gym this weekend.

WI

Drum roll please.......... My official WI tonight showed me a loss of 3 lbs!!! YAY!!!
I have had many bad days this week and the last three work days have been a struggle to smile, I can honestly say this made me so proud of myself.
For a grand total of 122.2 lbs lost. Now when I reach 125 lbs gone, I swear I am gonna party like there is no tomorrow . You don't understand how for me 125 is such a milestone that I have been so close to get but never reached.

I did decide to join the gym again. I will try to go as much as possible. I have a great deal that I am getting and I honestly feel like I can't pass it up. I may never go 5/times a week but at least if I can go 3 times it's more then what I am doing now... nothing.

Monday already??

This weekend went by too fast.

I slept in late both mornings, it felt fantastic. That was about the only thing great about my weekend.

Yesterday I did head out to the movies. Marley and Me, I had read the book and really wanted to go see the movie. I am a huge dog/animal lover, it was a real tear jerker for me. I knew it would be but I thought I could manage without bawling... nope!

I did slip up when it came to food. I binged on anything I could find yesterday. I was just randomly eating because I felt hungry. I will deserve whatever is coming to me on Wednesday for my WI.
I felt so sorry for myself, pity party for one, I decided food would help me feel better. It does not, I know that but when you are in that moment nothing else seems to matter.
Oh yeah and then there was Friday I had a piece of ice cream cake, Saturday I did pretty good. But look out Sunday.
Yuck, I feel gross just admitting how bad I did.

My gym membership has expired, I paid for 2 mths only went one... I just like to give to the economy. Paying without going who does that???
I think I am gonna commit to a 6 mths membership, and actually go this time.

Blah

Thanks to everyone for the encouraging support I am feeling! It's so nice to get to know new bloggers. Also I need to the support to get to where I am going!

Today not much to report... I got my monthly gift this morning unexpectedly at work... I always start on a Sunday which is good due to evil cramps. So two days before schedule and it had to be dropped in on the busiest Friday's we have seen in a long time.

Then I got all emotional, I was all grumpy then super happy... oh and then look out here comes the tears. Stupid hormones!

I bought the new People's magazine, it's the one about the real people who lost weight. I always buy that issue and save them for inspiration.

Tonight's agenda, comfy clothes, pain meds, heating pad and a good magazine.
Sorry for the downer but it always gets the best of me. It will be better by tomorrow.

WI results

For all you new followers, be warned I am not a morning person. So this will be short and sweet.

I WI last night... I lost 5 lbs!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok so I had gained 8 lbs withing a three week period and my loss this week was probably just water leaving my bloating body, but hey it's still a great start!

It's just what I needed to kick myself to give it my all.

Team Angie!

Teams have been announced for BLBE 2 and I am on team Angie!

I hope even thought some of you aren't on the same team we will be friendly to each other... no sabotaging. LOL , but beware I am competitive.

Today is my official WI. Now they are calling for some nasty freezing rain shit this afternoon. If my meeting is cancelled I will WI at home. I am thinking about starting to WI at home and maybe do WW online. After two years of just going to get WI, not staying for the meeting, it's seems like a waste to drive 10 minutes, pay 15$, and leave one minute after getting on a scale.

I weight myself so much at home already why would I not do that??!

I ordered a winter jacket and snow pants from Sears and it's not super hot looking, I wanted to do some winter activities. Like walking, skating, and cross country ski. Get this.. I got the jacket but the pants are on back order. It's only winter for a few more months...will I get the pants in June?? I think I might cancel and go look what they have in the stores.

Here's pic from the website.

Too much weight in one year?

So yesterday was a normal day at work... Back to full staff and full days.
Of course half the staff complained the whole day about needing to loose weight. Now this is some dangerous water to embark on because they are always on and off "diets".

A couple of us are serious and will support each other. Now some think they know it all, that drives me nuts!
Don't give me advice if you have not lost any weight and should...

I have a continuing problem with one person always telling me I am not allowed to have treats...BUZZ OFF! She keeps saying once I loose all my weight then I can enjoy myself. Hello... Can you hear yourself while you are stuffing your face with cheesecake??

The point to this story is I was asked yesterday how much more lbs I would like to loose before being at goal.
Between 50-70 lbs would make me really happy with my weight. Because I am short I still won't be considered skinny, but I think I will be healthy!
After telling the story I added I wanted to have this happen in 2009, only to be shot down.

It went something like this... " impossible to loose that much weight in one year. You would have to drastically change the way you eat and exercise every day"

EXCUSE ME, seriously from the one who can't bring their lunch in everyday, eating out and if there is sugar around watch out it's the seagull in for the landing...

So why you ask am I bitching about it here and not standing up for myself at work???
She's one of my bosses! I will however snap I know that for a fact and my other boss he will stand up for me for sure.
He has been such a good supporter and have cheered me on all the way. I am not worried when the day comes and I need to raise some hell! LOL

The challenge is on my bossy friend... I will loose my weight this year!

BLBE 2, here I come

Thanks to everyone who encouraged me yesterday.
I did put my name in the BLBE 2 and I will kick some ass.

I did not do good so far in the week. Today is a new day.

I am so exhausted lately and feeling slumpy. It's hard to get out of bed... But I am up and need to get ready for work now.
Working keeps me in line, following a schedule, making a lunch. So much easier then when I am off and trying to stick to good food.
I did groceries yesterday so at least I am stocked with good things!

Challenges??

I have been thinking about challenges to help me get to my goal.
I did take part in the BLBE 1 and failed at that. Now they have BLBE 2 but I don't think I will join only because I feel like I sucked at the first one who would want me on their team.
Then I looked into many other online challenges, nothing is calling my name.
Maybe I will just hope I have some great support in place and just plow thru my own challenge.

For Christmas I received a herb garden thingy for indoors. I have wanted one for a long time.
It's cute it's made by Chia and it comes with 6 different herbs but with only 4 terra cotta pots...
So I started off by planting my favs... chives, basil, cilantro, parsley. The 2 I left behind for now are marjoram, and dill. I love dill but I think I will go get another pot and some soil and plant it a little later.
I will take pics when there is actually sprouts now it's just a pot with soil! LOL

First post of 2009

Happy New Year!!
I will not make any resolutions this year. I tend to not keep them anyways.
Making it to goal is a for sure thing for 2009. Even if it takes me to December 31, I am gonna make it and stay there.

I am feeling much better got my appetite back. However I still feel real tired. I will rest this weekend for sure.
We got a blizzard yesterday so I was able to stay home and just watch the snow fall.

I love how it's the weekend already!!

I have been pretty good with a couple of slip ups in the food dept.
Exercise is still non existent. I will make out this weekend. I think I might join another month at the gym but I have to make it worth the money... By actually going! LOL

I have nothing else to say and I am running super late for work( I don't feel like going... SHHH!)

Have a good Friday!