Watching American Idol trying not to eat the whole fridge... I am so hungry.
My day was screwed up I woke up late, I forgot I had to bring doggy to the vet this morning. I am used to working at noon on Tuesdays. I got off running and by the time I got home I had just enough time for a small bite.
For supper I had a huge salad, but there was leftover birthday cake starring at me at the office. I resisted!!
I am going to implement the birthday person should bring the rest of the cake home so I don't need to look at it for 2 days.
But do you ever feel like you should have just gave in??
Tonight I got home and ate chips, Peanut butter and don't ask but some crab meat... WEIRD. No I did not put those all together it was three different trips.
I am now bitting my nails off because I just want to keep eating. WHY????
Tonight we had a deep conversation about dating. As you may know I have not dated in almost 3 years. After my 9 yr relationship ended I was sure I would be alone for the rest of my life.
Tonight after talking to friends at work, I came to realize I want to get my feet wet. At my age is the only option Internet dating??? I really don't want to go there. Deep thinking is going on.
Anyways it got me thinking... maybe that's why I am suppressing my feelings by eating.
Now that felt better letting all that crap out!!
11 comments:
Blogging is so therapeutic for me. It is nice to be able to lay it all out on the table. Good job for being honest - that's half the battle for me. I'm telling you, food is a form of healing for me. . . it always has been. Now, I have had to find other ways to deal - blogging is one of them. And - just for the record - you're beautiful and you deserve someone to love and be loved by. So, get out there. You're worth it.
I think it's hard too to find ways to meet people.
Is there a dog walking place that's public that there might be people? Any other hobbies or new things you want to try?
Good luck! Get those feet wet!
I think 5 years ago internet dating was a scary thing, but it has definitely improved (or so my friends have told me). It might be worth a look.
I'm sorry that you're having such a difficult time recently. Maybe you just need something to get yourself excited. What motivates you? What gets you excited? What are you working towards right now?
Keep up the good work.
The pictures look great, great job.
Internet dating is not so bad anymore. My boss met her husband on Yahoo Personals. I know it sounds like "Eek!" but really then you have an opportunity to meet more people (and yes some of them will be lame or scary I'm sure).
Great job avoiding the cake!
We all have days like that and I hope that today is a better one for you. On the dating front, I was single for eight and a half years before getting together with the nicest guy at Christmas and it's all going very well. Not internet dating, a friendship that evolved, but the whole internet thing much better than it was a few years ago - I have a friend who's getting married this summer to a guy she met at a speed-dating event.
So enjoy yourself and have some fun - who knows what'll happen!!
Whenever I start out on the wrong foot, my daily food tends to be a little off too. You felt like you wanted to chew your arm off because you didn't have three proper meals. Maybe the answer to that is you need to pre-plan on Monday nights for your oddball Tuesdays?
Internet dating isn't the only answer, but it's one of the easier ones. I met FH on Lavalife. I dated about a dozen duds first and actually had two other men that I thought might work out before I met him. Honestly, it's better than meeting in a bar or a grocery store. At least you can chat my email/messenger/telephone first before you have to go for coffee. :) You just have to go in with an open mind...expect nothing...and don't take it personally when things don't work out...and be surprised when they do. :)
I hear you.
Had a similar week! I am sooo glad I don't like cake :D
and the dating thing. gargh. it makes me want to cry.
I met my husband online in 2003. Yes, there are jerks and weirdos online too, same as everywhere. However, I dated worse in school, lol!
There are other places: take a course (like cooking or another language, something where the students have to interact), join a walking group, at the gym, any outdoor festival/concert where people are milling, the dog park, etc.
The argument I would give for online dating over these other places is that the online people are actually looking for someone. The interesting man in your Spanish class may be already attached and just want to learn Spanish, you know?
Kudos for starting to think about this stuff.
I'm with you sister - struggling too. Good for you for being honest with yourself and us. This is the first day in your new journey forward. I'm behind you!!!!
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