Last Thursday there was a huge outdoor concert with ACDC, I am a huge concert junky but because of my recent trip I could not afford to spend 130$ plus beverages to go.
I was really bummed until new guy lives really near the concert site, so after work I went over. He made me supper and then the surprise he made me homemade cupcakes.
I only ate one! I love cupcakes you can not make me happier then that.
We then went outside to listen to the music under the full moon. To our surprise to end the concert there was a fireworks display and we could see them perfectly from our seats.
I had decided to sleep over... NO still no sex.
The next morning went to work had no lunch, I could have grabbed something healthy but because I had skipped breakfast I headed out to Mcdonalds. BUT in my defense I skipped the fries which is huge to me.
This weekend I have been doing pretty good. Except yesterday I had a meltdown.
I was taking off my dating profile on the dating site. Out of curiosity I went to see if dude #2 put his profile back up. YES! I was so mad and frustrated. I instantly sent off an nasty email.
Then in two seconds flat I hit send and regret poured into me.
He's allowed to do what he wants. If the truth was he was falling in love with me but the fear of commitment because of loss was the only issue holding us back .... Why are you putting your dating profile back???
He responded that I had him all wrong but if it made me feel better to believe I had been fooled and he was dishonest then go ahead. He was taking off his profile for good.
I skipped lunch, I had a small bag of vending machine chips, and then came home and had Chinese food.
Now I want to write back to him that I am sorry for being psycho and move on from this. So I can stop stuffing my face with food to make myself feel better. I have to take new guy's feelings into consideration. I would not be happy if he was making contact with a ex date.
Wish me mental help. lol!!!
6 comments:
Wishing us all good mental health!
The evening with the new dude sounded so fun. Only 1 cupcake is awesome.....he bakes, that's got to count for something...lol
Do whatever you have to do to get the other dude out of your head. Doesn't sound like he's honest, even if he might have been trying to spare your feelings.
Have a great day!
As much as you are tempted to send off another email to apologize why not just wait. Or...do up your email and save it for a day or two..if by then you still want to send one go for it.
Have fun with your new guy :)
I had plenty of my weekend regrets. That cupcake looks good!
That dude gave you fireworks and cupcakes... so stop thinking/obsession about guy #2. Thanks!
I'm sending you a virtual slap. Stop all communication with Dude 2. He isn't worth it! Concentrate on and celebrate the new guy. He seems great.
im wishing you good choices!
enough Julie! make good choices for yourself! dude #2 messing with your head does not mean you should be eating mcd's - fries or not! you deserve to treat yourself so much better!! You are so beautiful, inside and out..start treating yourself like #1 and i bet others will too:)
i think you are awesome..i hope you realize that's what this message is..not that i'm "yelling at you"..that i'm sending you a virtual Jillian-esque high five to the back of your head, followed quickly by a feel better virtual hug
xo
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