Yesterday was bad in a weird way. First I had somewhat of a bad day at work. I ended up staying after the office was closed to do some work. I worked so hard I forgot to eat. I got home almost 10 pm I was in no mood to find something to eat. So I had a bagel. Way under points for Thursday which is no good.
Today I am in a great mood. Had an awesome day at work. We were only 6 working today and out of that 4 ordered from some greasy place for lunch. I was so tempted, but then remembered how good it felt loosing this week, why would I screw that up?! YAY ME!! I ate my salad, however had 2 timbits.
I did hit the gym tonight. I only did 35 minutes but still I am happy with that.
I did have a conversation today that got me thinking.
I am a very shy person. I have a low self esteem and honestly I think I am socially retarded.
I hate social things, I won't go to the gym if there is a parking lot full. I am even looking for a good excuse not to go to my staff party ( we are only a staff of 13).
It got me thinking... Will this get better once I loose all my weight and feel confident??
I do not think it's weight related. I think it does not help but I believe I was a shy kid and until I got obese was very shy.
Most of you probably find it weird but I just needed to let this out.
It's a hard topic to talk about and I just think sometimes being overweight comes with baggage that is hard to let go.
They are calling for a snow storm tonight and tomorrow. I will be taking it easy and contemplating certain decision in my life. (work related)
6 comments:
I don't think it's weird!
I'm shy and an introvert. I've, over the years, learned to be more comfortable being more outgoing (some would now never never believe I'm an introvert), but there are still times I just feel terribly horribly awkward. They pass. Phew.
I also have these odd conversations with myself about whether or not I should do things because I'm shy and insecure. I have recently come to the conclusion that it has to do more with my attitude than with my weight. I realize that I need to do both: change my body AND change how I see myself. Congrats on your weight loss. You are an inspiration!
I don't think it's weird either.
I was very shy as a kid, too. In my 30s I was diagnosed with social anxiety. http://www.socialanxietyinstitute.org/define.html
Cognative behavioural therapy has helped, but I think it may be something I always fight against, like weight.
Congrats on your NSV of saying no to the greasy food!!
Lots of snow this morning here in Halifax! Everything's pretty much shut down.
You are definitely not alone in this and I think alot of people feel this way.
I don't think it has anything to do with your weight but how you feel about yourself on the inside.
Keep working...some people are naturally introverts and some are extroverts (I think those are the words I'm looking for).
Are you interested in getting out there more? Perhaps look into a social club and bring a buddy with you??
Glad to hear that your Friday was better than Thursday :)
Awesome job on your food choices too...I was tempted with Poutine on Friday and passed!! :)
Good luck with your decision.
I'm quite shy too. I'm definitely a homebody...not into going to bars or anything to meet & be around people.
I don't like being in a group of people that I don't know. I'm most comfortable with my friends & family.
It doesn't have anything to do with my weight for me. I was like this when I was thin, too.
I used to think being a homebody was weird & boring but now that I'm older I know better. I'm very content with myself and don't need alot of outside stimulation to feel happy. I like to do things one on one mostly...a good friend to spend the day with or (hopefully) a boyfriend in the near future. It's not a problem for me so I haven't done anything to 'fix' it.
Congrats on the NSVs this week. That is really terrific!
I am definitely an extrovert, but even I get shy sometimes. The worse I feel about myself, the more shy I get. So perhaps you will come out of your shell a little as you continue on this path to good health. I think Katschi makes a good point though. Being shy is only an issue if it bugs you (which it seems like it does).
It took bravery to even admit it on your blog! Good for you. :)
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